I often contemplate about a lot of things- The meaning of my existence, how many galaxies there must be out there…but right now I'm thinking about my art and how I need to kick it up a notch. I don’t feel like I’m expressing what I want to express to it’s full capacity. I feel like I can do better, I guess.
The point of creating artwork, for me anyway, has always been about trying to express some sort of emotional depth. Some of my works are very personal- they serve as a form of catharsis in order to let out what is bottled and raging within. One of my favorite pieces, for example, (“self portrait in flames” represents how I felt during a life threatening situation. I had an accident where my arm was cut open so deep some tendons were slit and I could’ve easily bleed to death had I not gone to the hospital. During the time I was staring down in shock at this vulnerable, incredible wound my mind raced with a million thoughts- all the people I loved, the good times I’d been lucky enough to enjoy, the bad times I’d been strong enough to endure- thought I was going to lose it all… I’ve never been so scared in my life. Once the doc stitched me up and declared me still alive I was engulfed by this fantastic sense of euphoria- I felt like I was floating above my body as a spirit or something the like. I literally felt like I was floating in the clouds and I had this overwhelming sense of peace that let me know everything would be alright. It was like that fear made me realize the truth of my reality, but once I let it go of it I was above everything I knew. I’ve never felt so Alive. Sure I’m sure the adrenaline had something to do with it, but to me it was a spiritually empowering experience- one that I will never forget.
So, in a nutshell, I try to take my experiences and put them onto paper and canvas in hopes that someone out there will have the same purpose for their art and understand how I feel. To me, art runs so much deeper that sheer aesthetic value- it’s about having an emotional core to it. This is my form of communicating with others like myself- those who feel deeply and experience life on a different level.